This week has been a humbling one. I unfortunately had to have surgery due to some complications I experienced while having my Babies. And after nearly losing my own life from the complications I had with Gavin. I knew that we had to be done having kids.
This surgery was just one more nail in the coffin of I couldn't have anymore kids so it's been really hard to wrap my feelings around it. The process of putting this chapter behind us and moving on to the new one has been so slow and hard for me. Because anyone who knows me knows that my heart will always ache. I will never know what it's like to raise a little girl.
But I feel so blessed to have 3 handsome healthy boys. They each bring such joy into my life. And I wouldn't trade them for anything.
I'm so grateful for all the wonderful people who came to my aid in helping. With all the phone calls, flowers,prayers,blessings, driving me to the Dr. at 6:20 in the morning, taking my kids after school and bringing my family dinners. I feel so loved and so blessed to know that I have so many wonderful people surrounding me. I'm not very good at excepting help and felt that I could do it on my own. So when I got so sick from a bad reaction from the medication, I'm so grateful that people just stepped in. When I went into my surgery I thought I was just going to have a great nap, little did I know I would wake up in the ER. When the Dr. asked me if I knew where I was all I could ask was. "who are you?" I was more concerned that my female Dr. somehow turned into this man that I've never seen. I guess they even took me there on the ambulance, but I don't remember a thing. Poor Ryan had to see it all and sit in the consolation room wondering what the heck happened.
I'm excited to be free from the pain and exhaustion I've had for two years now. I pray that this surgery fixed the problem and I can again be healthy and able to live my life. Again thank you so much everyone for all your help. I'm so very grateful. My heart is very full and I know I'm very blessed.
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7 comments:
Suzette I hope you are feeling ok. You are such a cute mom with a cute family, take care.
I am so glad to here that things went "well", and that you are feeling better. We will keep you in our thougths and prayers. :) Cute blog page by the way, I love how you theme your blog out for the month. So much fun!
I'm so sorry Suz, I never knew you had complications or on going health issues. I really hope you start to feel better.
Hang in there girl! Glad you are faring alright. I heard about your little ER adventure. Not fun!!!
I understand the being done having babies before you are ready. I always wanted Brin to have a sister, but we don't always get a choice. It will get easier. Especially when you see a mom with a ton of kids (like four) and go okay 3 is good for me!!!!!!!!!!!! Hang in there and feel better soon!
Girl, what the...? I knew you had trouble with Gavin, but didn't know how serious it was! I really hope you're recovering well. And like you said before... you will get lots of grandbaby-girls, right? Your boys are so lucky to have such an amazing mama. I hope you know that! :)
Love ya!
Oh Suzette! I hope you are doing well now. It's been a few weeks since you posted this, but I wanted you to know that my prayers are with you. I hope this surgery helps you. I think you mentioned your pregnancy hardships in an email to me but I didn't realize how serious it was! I'm so glad that you are okay now. And about the girly thing- I used to say if I didn't have a girl that my daughter in-laws would be my girls and I'd be one kick butt MIL! So that's what you'll be! ;-)
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