2010 here we come.

Life is crazy busy as usual. My new 2010 goal is to slow it down a little and try to do something I enjoy. Like blogging more. OK I do update more then ALOT of you slackers but this right now is my only outlet. I don't talk on the phone (I'm so sorry.) I don't text, and well I've been a slacker about responding to e-mails.
I do check my facebook every now and then. But it's left me to not blog as much. Unfortunately this is my only journal and I have such a hard time remembering things so I need to be more diligent so my little Monkeys can remember and know why I have grey stripes in my hair :).

I can't believe it's 2010. My kids are growing so fast and I'm getting so OLD. This year I'll be 35 I can't believe it. Ok it's not for 11 months but I'm already dreading my b-day. I can feel another grey stripe heading my way. Trevor will be 10 and I no longer have a child in Nursery. (still can get my emotions around that one.) And my Joshua grew 2 inches. I can't believe it. He'll be the same age Trevor was when me moved here. I want him to stay small forever he's such a delight.

I wanted to remember a few things the boys said this last week that made me smile.

Trevor was being a REAL stinker. So after the (anger management) that's what we call his time out. He needs to take sometime to manage his anger and then come talk to me. I said to him. "I hope some day you'll have a kid like you so you'll understand why I get so frustrated." He then said "THAT'S THE MEANEST THING YOU HAVE EVER SAID TO ME." I guess that comment really struck a nerve because he has been stepping up and being such a obedient child. I love it. We have been working hard on his Science project and he's doing so well in school. He's such a great kid. Just a little too curious and likes to see how far he can push peoples buttons until they crack. I sure pray alot that he can use his talents for good. He would make the BEST lawyer. He can convince people of things like I've never seen before.

Joshua gave a complete stranger some free advice today. Gavin was talking to this man when the man asked him how old he was. Gavin's answer is always One W. Which is three fingers. Pretty creative if you ask me. And Gavin said to the man that his Mom was alot of W's. So Josh piped in and offered his advice. He said. "there are two things your never ask a women, 1. how old they are and 2. how much they weigh. Because they get really grumpy. I guess he learned this lesson a few times. As I have had to tell him it's impolite to ask girls how much the weigh. Why he said Women is beyond me he's never said that before but that is what make him so funny he's just so random like that. I never ever know what hes going to say.
He got this little Alvin and the Chipmunk toy at McDonald's and decided he was going to put it in his pocket push the button and pretend it's him saying what Alvin said. I got a cute e-mail from his teacher today saying how much Josh made her laugh. Alvin said "hello gorgeous." So he walks into the classroom tugs on his teachers pants pushes the button and mouths. "hello gorgeous." Then sat down without saying anything else. She just laughed and laughed. The funny thing Josh has no idea what gorgeous means.

Gavin is still my shadow and doesn't let me accomplish very much. When I leave he cries and cries. It tugs at my heart strings so badly that I have such a hard time leaving him. Today he just sat in my lap with a bunch of books and we read for 3 hrs. Gavin never ever sits still that long and granted we read the same book 7,000 times but it was so delightful just to relax and spend quality time with my son who's growing up WAY TO FAST. I love his little voice and his sweet disposition.
He's a ham and loves loves attention. And has his big brother Josh wrapped around his little finger. I should say for the most part he's got us all wrapped around his little finger. Josh just dotes on him like crazy. I got him a marble roller coaster to help potty train him. He loves loves loves marble towers. So every time he would go potty the plan was to give him a new marble to put on his tower. The only problem was Josh thought I was teasing him when he didn't want to go potty and would sneak the marbles and give it to him when he would cry. Sweet yes but ineffective for me. A big reason why he's still in diapers. Someday he will get this down maybe attempt #700 will be my lucky one.


Ryan found a bunch of gift cards he gave me in my wallet the other day and was so mad they have expired. I never get the time to go shopping. Ok I never take the time. But I'm a Mom with young kids. So he sent me out on Saturday. Sadly I only came home with two shirts for me and a bunch of clothes for the boys. But it was nice to get out for a while and not have to worry about a time limit of when I have to be done. Ryan is such an amazing man. He's so patient and kind. I love him so much and am so grateful to have him as my companion. He makes me want to be better and I couldn't ask for anything more.

I've kinda got lost in worrying so much about everyone else and everything else. That
I've neglected me. A hard hard lesson on giving is you can only give so much until your tank is empty. This year I've ran my tank down some. And I've been having a few heath issues. The good news is it has made me stop and think how I can improve my life and the life of my family.
I don't know how to find that balance as my kids are my life and will for ever be my life. It's such a blessing to be a Mom. I adore these little boys. But I know I'll be a better Mom with more paitents if I don't lose sight of who I am and have separate goals just for me.

So my 1st goal is to come up with a goal with in the next week :). There that's a good start right? Here's to a better year. One with health, strength and and a great family relationship. After all I do have the best boys in the world they deserve the best :)